Sunshining

Today the sun is shining just as bright as ever and I am glad that I am alive and able to enjoy the wonderful sunshine that the dear Lord up above has provided me with. Hoping that everybody has a great Sunday and gives thanks to the Lord.

Another thought of the day

If a girl is not married by the time she is 24 she may be lucky

Thought of the day

If you are married pray that its the one you will be with forever...if you aren't married count your blessings

Things that I am thankful for

My buddy Chris does this on his blog, which I think that is really neat. So here we start with my own things that I am very thankful for.

I am thankful for being a Christan and serving my LORD Jesus Christ.
I am thankful for having such good friends like Chris (the knight shift blog, very famous), my fraternity brothers, and my best friends that are
girls.
I am thankful for my family, my brother, his wife, and his little girl, my sister and her daughter, but most importantly my Mom and my Dad. Most of ya'll don't know it, but my mom is battling Stage 4 Breast Cancer. So I am thankful that she is still around for the holidays.
I am thankful that I have a job its not best job, but its a decent job.
I am thankful to live in a nation that you can speak your mind when you want to and do not have to worry about being imprisoned for it.

Happy Thanksgiving

From me Steven to all of ya'll who read my blog or stumble across it Happy Thansgiving.

Thought of the day

Being in love with somebody that you can not have really sucks major ass.

Okay okay okay

Movie Twilight will be here Thursday sometime sorry I have been so booked with work and everything else, mainly trying to find myself again, which I am on the verge of finding myself.

Finding myself

Missing the ball and chain
That once bounded me in pain
And sorrow.

Now comes the time I must
Get in tune
With nature
My true surroundings.

I must become as one
With nature
To let Mother take care
Of me,
Heal my wounded heart with
With her tender kindness

I shall not fear
Her wraith upon those
That have declared war
On me.

Twilight Review coming soon

Okay just watched Twilight for the first time and I have to say that was the best damn movie ever. A more in depth review coming soon

Why People Can't Understand Me

One reason why people can't understand me is that there is a constant battle of Good vs. Evil in me, but that is in all of us. My whole life has been one huge giant struggle for me and it will never end until the day that I die. I have too much pride in me and that is what I am fighting everyday.

Forgiveness

Can God ever forgive me for the sins that I have done in my life. With all the sins that I have done I don't expect God to ever let me in the Pearly Gates. I have sinned with pride and it lead to my own destruction and now I must face the consequences for what I have done.

Better Than Me-Hinder

This song describes the feelings that I have right now.

Not Understanding

Don't understand why this place of a world has to take and destroy a great guy like me (not trying to boast or anything).  Do people not know that they are destroying one of God's creations' feelings.  Does anybody know how to heal a broken heart at all?

Finally

Finally the nightmare is over and the voices inside of my head have been silenced for good.  Sanity returning like a river flowing. Finally the bad dream has ended.  Heavy burden been lifted, now I am back on track.

Gloomy Clouds Fading Away

Gloomy clounds fading away
Revealing the warmth of the
Yellowish-white orb that rules
The day
Yellowish rays shine down from
The heavens and the earth
Shivers with warmth

Earth basking in its glory
While the sun is shining
Earth knowing that the sun
Is getting ready to set for
Another day

Cold-hearted orb rules the night
Removes the color from the Earth's sight
Shadows creep over the Earth.

Earth quakes with fear as the moon
Rises.
For that the Earth knows what happens
When the moon rises.

Unspeakable things happen
And yet love grows beyond
Leaps and bounds
Hope growing
In this desolate world
Praying that new things work
Out for the best

Quote of the Day

The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. 
You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
                                                   -Bob Marley

Have you ever wonder?

Have you ever wonder what drives people to become crazy? 
Have you ever wonder why some people don't believe in God, when God's presence is all around us?

Destiny

Is it me or is it destiny that I am finding myself once again.  Destiny is wielding its award for me now. 

Thought of the day

There is 98 % of good people in the world, why do we hear about the 2% of bad people?

Feelings

Darkness flowing freely through my veins
Sorrow keeps feeling glass with pain,
While madness toys with my mind.
Insanity becoming more and more of a reality.

Screaming to the top of my lungs
Begging God to stop the madness and the pain,
But I continue my path to destruction
Knowing that there is nobody to save me now.

The damage has allready been done
And its far greater than expected

Hurting People's Feelings

No matter what happens in a relationship somebody is going to get hurt, and get blamed for everything that went wrong. What people do not understand it really affects the person that get blames for everything.  If people could only agree that it was both party's faults then the hurt should be less hurtful but that is wrong it still hurts just as bad.  Give people a chance and get to know them it might end up being the one you are really looking for.

Thought of the day

If the grass is greener on the side then why is it still green on this side?

Veterans Day

Its not only a national holiday where the banks are closed and the kids are out of school.  Its a day of rememberance for those that have made the ultimate sacriface for our freedom.  Never forget those that have made that sacriface and those that are fighting for our freedom today across seas with this war on Terrorism.  I have had a lot of people in my family that has served with the military and I am glad that they did.  My Grandfather Hassell O'Bryant served in World War II in the US Army Air Corp. (US Air Force was created after WW2) He served in Italy and Austria in 1944 and 1945. He was a corporal in a reconnasence unit. He helped develop photos that pilots took of target areas.  So basically my grandfather was a photographer. I guess that I get it honested because I love taking pictures.  The old timey picture is my grandfather standing in front of the barn that he and my Uncle Sid built it before pawpaw went off to war.  So today or any day, if you see or know anybody that is currently serving or has served in our military or be sure to thank them for their job well done, remember those that paid the ultimate sacriface, and pray for those that are overseas fighting for our freedom.

Second Amendment

In the United States Constitution, the first ten Amendments are known as the Bill of Rights. The Second Amendment is the right to keep and bear arms, which means that any one person can have a gun in their own homes without any illegal activity as long as they have the guns locked up and out of reach from small children.  Now in order to get a gun you got to have a extensive background check, criminal background check, just to make sure that you aren't going to go some where and go postal.  People ought to know that our government wants to take that freedom away from us just because they want our homes to be safer haha.  I will be the first one to tell you that I am much more safer knowing that I have a 12 gauge pump action shotgun within reach that when someone is trying to break into my house they will be the first one to know that I mean business because that will the be last time that someone will break into my house.  I am going to keep my family safe from harm and will tell people what I think of them if they tell me that I should not own a gun.  It helps keep the crime rate regulated...

Rebellion

I am here to tell you that there will be another Revolutionary War or another Civil War.  Take a look at what is happening in the world.  One look at the way how violence has increeased over people wanting food to eat.  The crime rate has shot up since the economy has gone to hell in a hand baket. Tension between all racial groups are at an all time high.  People are going to stand up for what is right and when the time is right they will revolt.  There are peopel out there are waiting for the right moment when they will begin the revolt. Several million people are not happy with the way this country is being runned right now with our new President. People are getting tired about the millions of dollars that our government is pumping into banks, while those banks go on retreats to a tropical island with all expenses paid for by our own money.  People it is time to start to speaking your voice and let your voice be heard because there will come a time soon that our voices will no longer be heard.

Another Thought of the Day

Heartache is a pain in the butt

Thought of the day

Always listen to classical music or Soundtrack music that can inspire the soul do whatever you want to do.

He Stop Loving Her Today

This song is a song that speaks out when you truly love somebody until the day you die...Apparently I have two people that I will love until the day that I die no matter how hard I move on I will always love these two people the most.

Thought of the Day

Fate and Destiny are on crack

Over a 100 Posts in less then 3 months

I am so proud to say that I have posted over 100 blog post in three months.  This is a big time accomplishment for me... I hope to continue to crank out blog post like this for times to come..

A single blinding white

Rose blooms with thunderous
Silence,
Out in the middle of a dark gloomy
Graveyard that is surrounded by a dark
Midnight forest.

As I stumble upon the rose like a
Drunk stumbling into a tavern.
I fall down on my behind to look
More closely at the fragile rose,
And I wonder how such beauty
Could have ever grown in such a
Place.

As I pick up the rose and hold
The rose as if I was lifting a
Child.

The smell of the sweet intoxicated smell
Captivates me.
I finally realized that it was meant
For me to find this rose.

I start to think about the woman that I was
Going to marry, she died a few weeks before
I could ask her to marry me.
She was pure that it would have blinded you
With radiant white light.

I was there by her side just before she died.
I was going to ask her right then but, before
I could get the courage to ask her she died.

Ever since we laid her to rest
I have been coming to this dark gloomy
Graveyard, but all of the times that I have
Been coming to this graveyard,
Tonight is the first night that I have ever found
A single white rose blooming on top of her grave.

The time that I fell in love with an angel

I
I stumble my way through
The snow covered forest
As if the snow was a blanket.
The huge orb that shines its
Silent yellow-white light through
The dark, gloomy, deathly still
Trees.

Even though that its a clear night
Stars decide not to shine for me.
I see a house that has candle yellow
Lights that are shining through the window.
As I approach the tiny cottage,
I catch a glimpse of an angel
But I am not sure.

II
I approach the Cherry Oak door
I knock with a whimpering knock
For that I am so exhaust and so
Cold for walking in the waist deep
Snow.

The Cherry Oak door opens up
And I am greeted by this angel
Who lives alone in this tiny cottage.
Her hair is a sandy beach blonde that
Has a hint of ginger in it.
A smile that beacons my ship
To her harbor.

Her eyes are a misty green color and
Her body has all of the right curves that
goes with an angelic face.

III
She sees how badly exhausted I am,
So she takes me in.
She sits me near the fire so that
I can get warm.
She takes care of me and
Nurses me back to health.
I sleep for several days,
For that I am so exhausted.

I awake three days after I
Arrived to the tiny cottage to
Find that there really is an angel
That lives here in this tiny cottage.
I see her laying there on floor.
I realize that I am laying in her bed
I should have been been sleeping on
The floor instead.

I get up to check on her to make sure
That she is okay.
She awakes at the moment that I am fixing
To get up to check on her.
I look into those misty green eyes of hers.
I can not believe that I am staring into the eyes
Of a true angel.
And at that exact moment I fell in love with
An angel.

Why did I have to go?

Why is it that I have

To go?

Far away from everybody

Soon I will be.

Traveling on the winds

That blow on this great

Good Earth.

I scatter to the four

Winds of the Earth trying to get

A glimpse of you.

I ride the wind that

Blows through your hair,

So I could feel what it is

Like to touch your hair.

But do you know that it was I

Who touches your skin and hair

When the winds blows?

I try to whisper to you to tell you

That it is not your fault for me dying

Thatt day, when we had that very big

Argument.

I left your house driving as fast as

A nascar driver down those winding

Roads.

Its my fault for that I should have watched

The road instead of looking back and I

Never saw the curve that was there and the guard rail

That was never replaced,

So I flew over the curve and over the cliff I went.

I love you and I want to let you know that there is

A new life that is growing inside of your belly.

In time you will find somebody new to help take care

Of our child.

So I return to the four

Corners of the Earth watching,

Waiting, and looking for the next

Time that I get to see a glimpse of

You.

I hear you screaming my name

Out to the wind.

Crying and asking,

Why did I have to go?

Forgotten By The Hands Of Time

As I walk down this long and winding road,

I think about the happiness that I have had

In my life.

All that I am wearing is a pair shorts, t-shirt, my hat, and my shoes.

The pale white orb is shining in the blacken sky,

The trees shaking their heads in hatred,

wondering why I am walking down a path with no other.

As I am walking I open my bottle of whiskey

Trying to drink my sorrows away,

Feeling the whiskey burning like hot coals as it goes

down my throat into my stomach,

But can not seem to drink my sorrows away.

I start to wonder if I have been forgotten by the

Hands of time.

I start to wonder if anybody has wondered

Where I was when I left my house.

I do not care if they care because if they had cared they

Would have tried to help me before I left,

But no worries.

The wind starts to howl and yell at me for being stupid,

I'll never know what would have been if she had decided to stay.

I start stumble now for the alcohol starts to take effect on me,

But I continue on because I have been

Forgotten by the hands of time.

Rising From The Ashes

Rising from the ashes

Like the mystical bird Phoenix.

Today is a better day.

The warm yellow sunlight beaming

Down on my face as I go out to start my day.

I know that my troubles are still there in my heart,

But God has freed me from my prison and

I have a feeling that things are on the way of

Becoming better.

I feel like that God had handcrafted this day

As a special day for me.

For that I have risen from the ashes.

Driving Down A Dirt Road

Driving down a dirt road,

Out in the middle nowhere,

Driving towards the firey sun

As it sets in the western sky,

Thinking about all of the choices

that I have made in my life.

I look to the right side of me

And I see a girl

With light strawberry blonde hair,

Her eyes are that of emeralds.

She has a smile that could make

Any man's heart melt,

And I am happy that she is

With me on this journey to the great

Unknown.

She knows what I have been through in

My life and I want to show her things

That I haven't shown anybody else.

She knows that the road is going to be rough,

But she is there thick and thin.

For that we are,

Driving down a dirt road,

That is headed for the future

That we want to create.

New Feelings Being Mixed With Old Feelings

What is this strange new feeling
That I am feeling?
New feelings being mixed with
Old feelings
In the matter of weeks
Hearts being broken and
Hearts being made renew
Relationships ending
While new friendships are raising
Out of the ashes.
People going their separate ways
People finding their way in life
People's lives crossing with each others
Lives again
Hearts falling in love
While other hearts are falling out
Of  love
Being at peace at last

If I don't post for a while

If I happen to not post for a while its because I don't have a house or internet...I am going to bake some pumpkin pie for the first time in my life, actually this will be the first time that I have cooked something period.  Wish me luck and you might want to have the fire department ready...oh that is right I am firefighter now I rejoined my community fire department so now its time to put some fires out hahahaha..

Thought of the day

Why is it that you get what you need but you can not seem to get what you want

Sorry Blog Readers

I am sorry that I have not been posting like I should because I have been so busy with work, and just trying to find time to relax.  I am hoping to have some stuff posted by late to night. When I get home from work I plan on just down and working on things that I want to post. This has been a really weird week that I have had this week. Two people (well actually one) from my past has came back into my life for some reason while the other I don't know why she still here, but there must be a reason for everything. Here is a picture of a storm  cloud that I captured with my camera this past summer.

This picture is taken by me and it is NOT SOMEBODY'S ELSES WORK.  So DO NOT say that this is somebody's else work because you do I will be angry.  This photo was taken at my house back in June 2009.  I love taking photos of storm clouds when they build like this.

Photo by: Steven Glaspie (Me)

Prince of Persia: Sands of Time

Prince of Persia the video game is being made in a movie that is going to release May 28th, 2010.  It has Jake Gyllenhaal and Ben Kingsley. It looks like that is going to be a great movie, only one little down fall, Disney is making, but don't get me wrong it looks Pirates of the Caribbean meets Lawerence of Arabia.   I just hope that I am not disappointed with it...

here is the link to the trailer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_ZpqkJE1mk

Tonight

Can't believe that I am falling in love with some one again. I had thought that the feelings that I had for her were gone until tonight...I can't say what happened, but something happened and now we are feeling the feelings that we had for each two years ago going on three years.. Love is a strange thing in this day and age.

Another thought of the day

Love is gentle, but yet it can be pain suffering.  The best kind of love that anybody should be feeling is the gentle kind.

Thought of the day

Is reality absolute or is it a illusion?

Seasons changing yet again

Well its that time of year again when the seasons change from Fall to Winter. This is the hardest change in my life because this is when my seasonal depression kicks in really bad. Saturday one of my Brothers (Fraternity Brothers that is) took me out on his boat at Belews Lake.  This one picture here is taken at the landing where we dropped off his boat.  It was raining some but it more a of drizzle than anything at all.

This is like a trailer park that is on a hill at Belews. The only problem with some of the places is the hill is started to erode and all it would take is a good amount of rain fall and some of the trailers would literally fall into the lake.  It reminds of something that you see in the mountains and not here in Piedmont.

Here is something that is goregous no matter what time of the year it is. A sail boat on the water. The day was a great day out on the lake even though it was rainy and gloomy but it was a great day.

Ode to my Life

Darkness creeps in the minds
Of happiness
Confusing thougths come to life
Confusing hope stirs in the
Darkest depths of the soul
Worrisome thoughts plaguing
The heart
Tricks being played on the
Strong,
While the weak lose control
Wheels of time stop
While the wheels of fate and destiny
Spin out of control
People coming back from the past
Seasons of life changing for the best
Seeing for the first time in life
Pondering what life has instore

Aries Theme (Aerith's Theme)

Aries or Aerith is a character from Final Fanstay VII. As far as I can recall she is the only Final fantasy character to actually die and not be able to come back to life.

Halloween '09

Halloween '09 was probably the best Halloween so far in my life. The reason that is because two of my fraternity brothers made sure that I was out having fun and living life to the fullest. 

Never Forget

Now this came out like a couple of days after 911, greatest act of terrorism on American soil, since the bombing of Pearl Harbor on December 7, 1941...Nobody really knows who created this, but this is a major hit. This something that we must never forget ever...especially the 343 firefighters, police officers, and port authority, and lets not forget all of the people that lost their lives to this tragic event that will always be there to haunt us.

Yet another thought of the Day

Never drink before bed you might end up having some crazy ass dreams