Letted so many people down

I can't begin where I have let so many people down.  I have few friends that will not let me falter, but there is a time where I will have to do things on my own and make sure that everything will be okay in my life. I just wish that I could be happy and I am happy, but why I am going through this now while my plate is too full to begin with.  Its sad that my head can not absorb anything right now because its running in circles.  I am glad that I have a great friend like Chris Knight, if it was not for him I would probably go insane forever, but instead he has lead me to the Dark Side because they have cookies hahahaha.