Feeling

Wandering around in this cruel world,
Wandering why so many misfortunes
Have to happen to me?
What have I done?
Why is this happening again?

Trying so hard to make the best
Out of this life,
But yet it seems like I get nowhere.
Trying to keep calm and positive,
But when your spirit has been
Dealt devastating blow after blow.
Start to wonder when will it end.
Sometimes wonder if living life to the fullest,
Will ever be fulfilled.
So tired of hurting, waiting, and hoping
One day it will ease and normal again.

Winter's moon shining its eerie white light
On the freshly fallen snow.
Tracks too small for anybody
To identify.
A man struggles walking in knee deep
Snow. 
Blanket wrapped around him,
Trying not to shiver in the cold
And keep the wind from freezing
Him.
His body is colder than ice,
He can feel his blood starting to freeze
With each breathe.
With each step he thinks its his last
Step.
He is knows death is watching him in the shadows
Of the surrounding trees.
He would embrace death
Like an old friend.
He draws what he thinks is his last breathe
As he falls forward in the snow.
God has other plans for the man.
A stranger,
Who just so happened to be nearby walking in the
Snow,
Sees a lump in the snow.
The man awakes in a bed,
In a small cottage.
He wonders how he got
Inside the cottage.

Knowing that all things
Must come to an end.
How do you pick up
The pieces?
Why must we suffer
As much as we do?
Does each new day bring
Something new?
Or does it not care
Of the way we feel.
How can a human being
Ever get over the loss
Of something so dear to
Them?

The Walking Dead

Couple of months ago I started watching the number one hit TV show on America Movie Classic (AMC), the walking dead.  Its the greatest show ever.  Its about how people survive any type of apocalypse, in which this case its dealing with zombies.  It shows how people's true colors come to shine, they would do anything to make sure they stay alive. It starts off with the main character, Rick Grimes when he wakes up in the hospital all alone.  He walks outside and sees so much devastation he wonders what is going on, but he doesn't see any body out walking around. I would like to tell more, but I bet you would like to watch it...I give 10 stars, nobody is safe..

Really wow

Has it been over two years, since I last posted something on here. My, my.  Well a lot of things have happened since I have made a post on here... Don't know where to really begin...I'm now married to my lovely wife Allison...me and Allison are working on our second year of marriage. My mom fought cancer and fought it hard, but her body lost the fight on October 12, 2014 at 4:40 pm est.  She will be truly missed...still working hard at my job and life is peachy!

Why is that I feel like that I want to cry?
What's causing this?
I know that I am very happy but why is it
I can not smile?
Why I am struggling with myself again?
I thought that I had tamed the beast, but yet it is still on its rampage.

Wow

Wow can't believe its been several months since that I was last on here.  I need to get better about getting back on here and do some writing down of my thoughts that have been going through my mind lately.  I plan on doing this sometime tonight (at least get started on it).  So much has happened here since the last time I have been on.  I know that I do not have many readers, but their are some out there that do like reading my posts.