Hopeless days,
Restless nights.
Mind plagued by memories
Than it is with hope.
Unwanted tears being shed.
Happiness nothing but a fantasy,
Heart skipping beats.
Future unknown to mankind.

You haunt my dreams every night.
I know you are there some where
In my dreams.
You said that you will be in my heart
Always.
I need you more than ever now
And I still can not believe you are
Gone.
You were the one that I could always
Come and talk to when I needed to.
But now all I have is a picture of you.
I am sorry for all the times when I got
Mad and took it out on you.
I miss you so much.
Can not wait to see your face,
Hear your voice,
And your warm hugs.

A burning candle shining
Like a beacon in the
Dead of night.
Hope finding its way
Into the hearts of others.
Love blossoming like the wild
Sunflowers blooming in the
Meadows.

Is it true?
Is this really how life goes?

Live each day as its the last day of
Life.

Mind full of memory,
Than with hope.
The past puncturing
The present like a bunch of
Stealing knives.
Killing the soul with each stab,
The blade feeling like an
Immortal blade,
In there is no healing from.

Eyes like an endless ocean
Of secrets and lies.
Emotions crashing down on
The shores of the soul.
Feelings walking a great journey
Throughout life.
Love being a suicidal drug
For lonely men,
Who cry out.
Wanting to be loved
By everybody.

Women locking their
Feelings behind
Iron gates,
No man can break through.

These are the feelings
Some people go
Throughout life
Feeling.
One of life's greatest mystery
Is how to make
Someone love you free
Willing.

Wondering through the
Sands of time,
Shadows of people's legacy
Around every corner.
Memory is the forgotten key
To life.
Time is a window of the
Soul.
Earth trembling in sadness.
Emotions being the mechanics
Of life.

I have not deserted this blog again just gotten busy and having writer's block

I look before me into
The horizon.
I see the vast emptiness
Of ocean stretching
As far as I can see.
Standing on the edge,
I hear the deafening roar
Of the waves pound against
The jagged edge.
I feel the blustery wind blowing
Across my face.
I see the violet lightning arching
Across the nighttime sky,
As the malevolent storm approaches
Me.
The beast inside me stirs from its mighty
Slumber.
I feel its rage burning inside of me.
It lusting to break free and make the
World feel its wraith.
Burning fire of vengeance,
Burns like a beacon in my soul.
Trying to hold back the devastated
Soul.

The storm rages on uncontrollably,
The wind blows down anything in its sight.
Thunder shaking the ground as
If it was an earthquake.
Feeling the anger of despair,
The ocean swallows the huts that are
Near the water's edge.
Hearing the horrific screams of villagers,
As they are swept out to sea.
Other villagers look upon in disbelief
That their brothers and sisters
Were swept out to sea.

The storm disperses,
The heavenly light of the sun
Shines on what's left of
The tiny village.

We decide what is right
And what is easy.
How does one person
Know what they do is
Even right?
We have to pay the
Consequences for each
Choice we have to make,
And pay for our choices.
Nobody can escape the fate
Of made choices.

Can not sleep,
Mind racing with thoughts,
Memories flooding my mind,
Voices of those who have passed
Speaking in mind.

Night turning into dawn,
Still not able to sleep,
Today is your day.
Today you will embark on
A journey everyone takes.

Dawn turning into day,
People gathering for your
Special day.
Even though this time is
Different,
You'll always have friends,
Near and especially far.

Still can not sleep.

I know that I have so many experiences only in the past thirty one years of my life.  I just like everybody else who has seen loved ones pass, experienced life, found true happiness, and I wouldn't change one thing about it.  I serve awesome GOD, and thankful that he let me live this long, and I hope that he lets me live a little while longer.  Never had any fancy clothes; never had anything handed to me, always had to work for what I got.  I'm happy that I have a steady job, a wonderful wife that I get to come home to each day to from work, friends, and a wonderful family that loves me unconditionally.  I know the true adventures of life are fixing to start. I just pray that GOD gives me strength, courage, and patience whenever my wife and I have a kid. As people will say this is just the beginning of life and there are several more chapters that have to be written, but I'm ready to write those chapters done.  May God Bless you all.

Feeling

Wandering around in this cruel world,
Wandering why so many misfortunes
Have to happen to me?
What have I done?
Why is this happening again?

Trying so hard to make the best
Out of this life,
But yet it seems like I get nowhere.
Trying to keep calm and positive,
But when your spirit has been
Dealt devastating blow after blow.
Start to wonder when will it end.
Sometimes wonder if living life to the fullest,
Will ever be fulfilled.
So tired of hurting, waiting, and hoping
One day it will ease and normal again.

Winter's moon shining its eerie white light
On the freshly fallen snow.
Tracks too small for anybody
To identify.
A man struggles walking in knee deep
Snow. 
Blanket wrapped around him,
Trying not to shiver in the cold
And keep the wind from freezing
Him.
His body is colder than ice,
He can feel his blood starting to freeze
With each breathe.
With each step he thinks its his last
Step.
He is knows death is watching him in the shadows
Of the surrounding trees.
He would embrace death
Like an old friend.
He draws what he thinks is his last breathe
As he falls forward in the snow.
God has other plans for the man.
A stranger,
Who just so happened to be nearby walking in the
Snow,
Sees a lump in the snow.
The man awakes in a bed,
In a small cottage.
He wonders how he got
Inside the cottage.

Knowing that all things
Must come to an end.
How do you pick up
The pieces?
Why must we suffer
As much as we do?
Does each new day bring
Something new?
Or does it not care
Of the way we feel.
How can a human being
Ever get over the loss
Of something so dear to
Them?

The Walking Dead

Couple of months ago I started watching the number one hit TV show on America Movie Classic (AMC), the walking dead.  Its the greatest show ever.  Its about how people survive any type of apocalypse, in which this case its dealing with zombies.  It shows how people's true colors come to shine, they would do anything to make sure they stay alive. It starts off with the main character, Rick Grimes when he wakes up in the hospital all alone.  He walks outside and sees so much devastation he wonders what is going on, but he doesn't see any body out walking around. I would like to tell more, but I bet you would like to watch it...I give 10 stars, nobody is safe..

Really wow

Has it been over two years, since I last posted something on here. My, my.  Well a lot of things have happened since I have made a post on here... Don't know where to really begin...I'm now married to my lovely wife Allison...me and Allison are working on our second year of marriage. My mom fought cancer and fought it hard, but her body lost the fight on October 12, 2014 at 4:40 pm est.  She will be truly missed...still working hard at my job and life is peachy!

Why is that I feel like that I want to cry?
What's causing this?
I know that I am very happy but why is it
I can not smile?
Why I am struggling with myself again?
I thought that I had tamed the beast, but yet it is still on its rampage.

Wow

Wow can't believe its been several months since that I was last on here.  I need to get better about getting back on here and do some writing down of my thoughts that have been going through my mind lately.  I plan on doing this sometime tonight (at least get started on it).  So much has happened here since the last time I have been on.  I know that I do not have many readers, but their are some out there that do like reading my posts. 

Silence creeping along
The stilled darkness of night
Coming to taunt and haunt
Me in the midst of slumber.

Silence washing over me like
A tide breaking along the shore.

I awake started and ringing with sweat.
Wondering what made me awake.

As I wake,
I look through the rose colored glass window
I see the silence
That has been taunting and haunting me
Retreat into the bleakness of night.

I wonder what made the silence retreat
Back into darkness.
I guess its the swift sunrise that
Fastly approaching

I pray to God that the Sunshine
Gives light to what I am feeling.

Hellboy 2 The Golden Army

This is part of the poem In Memoriam. This part of the poem is read in the movie Hellboy 2 The Golden Army. This not my work.

 In Memoriam by Alfred Lord Tennyson

Be near me when my light is low,
When the blood creeps, and the nerves prick
And tingle; and the heart is sick,
And all the wheels of Being slow.

The music that plays in this movie while this is being read is awesome and off the charts for person like me who likes great music. the music around 2:20 is breathe taking and it will speak anybody's heart (or at least I hope it will). 



A man's heart can be easily destroyed just as a woman's heart can be.

Oh wow its been a while

Some new poetry coming soon...Its been awhile since that I have been here I have been dealing with writers block for quite some time...Here in the past couple of days my mind began to come up with some poetry work.